Do NOT attempt this at home...

Ok, you can if you want, but I'm warning you...it ain't easy. What, you ask? BEING A MOM! Today is the first day in about 2 weeks that I haven't heard the pitiful wails of my two-year-old, C, from upstairs and the angry cries of my 7 week-old daughter, N, downstairs simultaneously at naptime. I'm not going to count my chickens before they hatch, though...it's still early...

I've made a previous attempt at a blog, but just couldn't keep up the energy or desire to maintain it. However, as the days pass more and more quickly, and my brain is able to retain less and less (or so it seems), I feel compelled to try to keep a better record of our day to day life. There are so many things I hope to remember in the coming years, but I doubt my ability to do so given the hectic nature of things. Little things C says or does, the milestones that N reaches, the lessons I learn as a mother...these are things that are important for me to remember. So here I go...

Seven weeks into my journey as a "mother of two," I find myself more confused and feeling more incapable than I did on day one. I suppose at some point we will all "adjust," but I'd really like to know when. The sleep deprivation is catching up with me, although my husband, bless his soul, has lost more sleep than me. (Thank you, honey.) The stress is catching up with everyone, including poor N, who appears to not be able to take a decent nap anymore. Why? Who knows... Newborns are next to impossible to figure out. I know this now, but it's no consolation.

At any rate, I feel incredibly blessed to have such an amazing family. My husband is the love of my life. My two children are healthy and beautiful and generally speaking (tee hee), happy. My biggest struggle these days is trying to live in the moment, for both the good and the bad. I often find myself wishing away the difficult times, but in doing so, I am also wishing away some of the best moments of my life. So, my goal is to take each day, hour by hour, smile by smile, tear by tear, laugh by laugh, small miracle by small miracle... Afterall, it won't be like this for long.